Sentimental Sunday

Hello everyone! To conclude my week of blogging I'm calling today's post Sentimental Sunday. I don't know what it is today but I'm feeling quite emotional, this week has been a big one for me, for getting back on track, being reunited with my love, my nephew's birthday and a lot of family drama all in one. 


I think it finally clicked this week that all of this, the weight loss, my journey, toning up, it's not going to happen overnight. I keep forgetting to remind myself how far I've come. A lot of this came from a picture I sent to Bridget Nicole via Twitter this afternoon. 

When I look at that photo I don't recognise the girl in it. I look at it and feel horrible, honestly looking at this post now it's making me cry. I felt brilliant on that night and I was so happy but looking at it now that's the worst part for me. I mean I don't think I look good in it and I didn't realise - and that's what's hurting. 

I've struggled with body confidence for as long as I can remember but in order to find this photo for Bridget I flicked through the 'photos of me' link on Facebook and honestly I was mortified. The pictures were devestating, I struggled to find a single photo in which I felt I looked good, even up to a few months ago. To be brutally 100% honest I think I look 'fat' in all of them. 

Which is why this journey I'm on is so important to me. It's not a sprint, it's a marathon and I've come so far. I need to keep reminding myself - I've already lost 14lbs. I've already lost a dress size, I'm already feeling so much more confident. And this is my issue. I need to let my confidence shine through. I'm so ashamed of the way I used to look and this is my motivation to continue. 

I have so little self confidence which is why this week has been so inspiring and such a big leap for me. The support I get from my Tone It Up family is so overwhelming and has moved me to tears. I'm so thankful for each and every follower I have on Twitter, everybody who's ever read my blog or ever sent me a message. Every night I thank God for blessing me with these incredible people in my life. It is because of you that I'm slowly getting the confidence I truly need to shine and for this I cannot thank you enough. 

I'm going to work my behind off to make this next week as good as the last. I am getting there and it is slow progress but I need to accept this and I am starting to. I'm loving every second of this journey and I can't wait to keep going! I WILL get some pictures that I'm proud of!

THANK YOU! It is all because of you guys!